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Tuesday, February 27, 2007
Again I remembered I had an account =|
I really should update on here a 'lil more often.
So errr today.
Nothing much really happened.
Again the highlight was talking to D...but hes got flu so chances are I won't get to spend time with him this weekend like I was planning to. I could go and visit him I 'spose. Its just if his mum lets me in =|
Jason got with Jess last night.
I'm so happy for them.
I just feel sorry for D's mate who likes Jess...because he broke up with his girlfriend to be with her. But then again he is back with that girlfriend now.
Ahh I hate that girl. She treats him like crap and cheats on him constantly and he will always take her back. He's taken more crap than any guy should.
Ahh Abby and that lot are irritating me at the moment. Just because Holly and Robyn are our friends as well as thiers there is no reason to start slagging us off. Seriously its like a compulsive thing with them!! We know they are best mates and we aint trying to steal them away or anything...its just how things go...people have other friends!! Now they have started insulting Robyn though, and thats not really gonna keep her with them is it?? A choice of friends who care and accept you or jelous backstabbers?? Its a bit obvious who I would choose.
I was thinking about getting extensions put in my hair. But then I got an e-mail back from the woman today £250 for glued in =| Errr thats just madness. I was thinking at £150 as a max. I want my hair long again like it used to be...but I can't be bothered to wait for it to grow...but then again if its a choice between waiting and paying £250...I'd rather wait. And thats saying something if you know how impatient I am =]
Friday night gig was good. I can still remember pretty much everything that happened. It was really good. Although both D's picked me up...and nearly dropped me =[ Aaand I jumped around quite a bit. Oh and I finally met Sam [drummer of reality uncut]I'd been talking to him on myspace for a while and then he was just there...and he recognised me before I even noticed him XD D said I looked well connected 'cos it seemed like I knew everyone there....Which I so did'nt LOL.
Current mood:  relaxed Current music: Enter Shikari - Sorry youre not a winner
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
After completely forgetting I even had a LJ account I have yet returned with more excitement from my life. Well sort of.
Yeh So whats been going on with me. Erm on Friday the long awaited event happened and I finally got with David. He asked me out when we was down by the beach, apparently he had a plan for the perfect romantic asking out, but Ant came over and ruined the plan LOL.
Its amazing how much you can like someone, I didnt think you could at 15 =]
OMG love this song *Dances*
Yeh anyway, school has been kinda shitty. I have a German speaking exam tomorrow which Im gonna have to revise for at break at something. I havent done hardly any homework just sat on msn waiting for him to come online, and then "his internet bust" is it fair to still be suspicious of him? I mean he is a BIT sexually active and he was getting off with Hannah when she was with Tom. I dunno I really like him but I dunno if I can trust him, we hardly spend any time alone together. I dont think he realises quite how much but I miss him like hell.
Is it just me or is anal sex everywhere recently? Seriously bloody porn sites keep popping up with it and its even in the book mum bought me =| Im getting scared now.
xx
Friday, October 6, 2006
Ever feel like you are falling? Just dropping, and everytime you reach a platform you can only balance for so long before you tumble and begin to fall again. Thats how this week has been, every oppurtunity possible for things to go right, for things to at least stay the same for a while and I end up falling again. Its like a curse, no matter what oppurtunities arise I never seem to manage to take them up, make something good happen, change the way things in my life are going.
I thought I found my path, I thought the way I am was the way I always want to be. But it cant be, this isnt me, what have I done to deserve the curse? Im praying, wishing, hoping for another platform, another chance to make a change or a difference in my life...so desperate that Im faking situations to impliment change. I know where I want my life to go but it just wont.
I need to find a balance, I thought I knew what I wanted but its obviously not right the way Im doing things. I need to think this through, take a new approach. I dont know anymore, I just sort of feel like Ive been tricked into being who I am. Tricked into thinking if I do things this way everything will be ok. Im sick of being force fed these lies. I need to change something, and that is gonna start first thing tomorrow.
Sunday, October 1, 2006
First entry, here it goes.
Today was pretty basic, I went out with the peoples yesterday and ended up swimming about in the sea in the freezing cold. And now I regret it cos I have the worst cold EVER. Ive seriously spent the whole day in bed and watching films, high school musical I watched. DONT LAUGH :| I love that film soo much, or maybe thats the tablets talking, they have really put me in a strange mood. So yeh I was bored and thought Id get live journal, maybe find some friends...who unlike on myspace wont care about where I live and stuff but who might actually wanna listen to what I have to say (which isnt much but never mind eh?)I have caught the eBay bug, I bought some stripey tights for £1.00!! Bargain. Well for my first entry I think this was pretty random but yeh. ONE other thing, Ive been thinking about someone alot recently. Heart = Get ready to be stepped all over
Current mood:  BiZzArE Current music: Aiden -- Die Romantic
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